Changes

Its amazing how in the blink of an eye everything that once was has managed to change without realization. Once a shy and pure soul, I have transformed into a blunt and sinful person. With the attitude of someone who could care less I continue waking with emptiness. I was happy at one time and in love as well, now melancholy and lonely. A heart turned cold, blocking any kind of vivid and genuine emotion so to barricade the risk of hurting inside. A friendship turned into hate, anger, rage and unnecessary words because of the changes progressed between both parties. A love loss and a friendship deceased, the inevitable wonder of how to make things right once more frequently surpasses the maze in which I distinguish as my mind. Seems as though this once lifelong commitment of friends has asserted its halt, never the less I will stay strong and continue as nothing has happened. I have noticed through life lessons that carefree is the better option…no attachments, no emotions…

Raindrops

Drumming on the window, pain rumbling with the symphony of each single drop, I sit harmonizing to each pitter patter, watching as nature participates. Delicate moisture glazes uncertain surfaces, ambushing every intended obstacle, cleansing the final destinations, until the raindrops decease and a glow of light displays its face.

Masks

I see through your masquerade, and you seem to believe you have me fooled…I realize your deceit in a beautiful way and continuing to smile I torture myself with your lies…though I know what may become of this, undeveloped anger is my issue…how passionate for you I have become, an unfortunate establishment of non-mutual feelings. Pain in such a rare and adoring position, and yet seeing your face relieves me of these emotions…

The Ocean

Desperate for redemption, and yet I stand in a circle of relief and breathing sighs. An ocean of poison we swim each direction a path for our own beneficial commentary, swayed by the clutter beneath the grim waters.

Underestimated

You realize you talking to a prodigy, something like a commodity, legendary none the less, competing with my swag is such a test, I roll like a boss, stuntin’ on hoes as I floss, a survivor in the least so watch how you step to me

Original

Sweet and sassy extraordinarily classy, one of a kind original heart soul and mind

Morality

Questioning my morality as well as the usual preaching’s from which are engraved beneath the brain mimicked from the mouths of elders. Although guilt should be familiar territory at this point, it seems transparent, like a needle in a haystack, it is lost and anticipated in rescue, and yet unlikely. Swallowed whole by this condemning ray of sunshine, and the thought of potential hate, displaying its inevitable shadow, reminding me constantly of the consequences of remorseful actions and thoughts pre-meditated.

Hate

I hate the way you look at her, the way you talk about her and the way you feel about her, I hate the way that we talk and the way we laugh, I hate the fact that when I am with you I am happy, I hate that I cant lie to you and the way you smile, I hate what you wear and how you smell, I hate how even when I want to cry you make me laugh, I hate that we are so close in all the wrong ways, I hate that we have so much in common and that we know each other better than anyone, I hate the way you talk and what you say, I hate that your cute even when you don’t try, I hate that you have such a hold on me, but most of all I hate that I don’t hate anything about you…I hate that I love you!

Best Friend

Through out life angels whisper to us softly…I have met and established a sincere and flamboyant union with an angel whom I refer so frequently as my best friend. My angel offers pure ecstasy in friendship and love in which I am a peasant. Content and blissful I remain as I walk hand in hand with my angel; my best friend. Friendship, the key to my gate of power and the depth of my inner being, restless I may become struggling for such an attempt of this addictive familiarity.

Jaiden

A former sense of quietude halts at the presence of an unprecedented life. An aroma of astringent milk united with tart filled diapers encloses the reminiscent walls. The windows to the soul glaze a metamorphic blue, drenching with caramel layers and loops cascading alongside the hearing. Such purity with each exhibit of happiness, as joy coats the lips of bloom. Among every smile, the plumpness of both cheeks form an endearing indentation allowing assumptions of satisfaction and amusement. The nose is sure to inhale with brilliance for it is petite with fulfillment of girth. The foundation demonstrates length; as the hands indicate stature, and the base suggest a sense of potential academic interests. With each day passing, wisdom spreads amid age, and an innovative discovery of learning presents itself

Give Up

Don't give up on love for it is powerful and wonderful...sometimes it seems like you will never find the one that God meant you to be with, but sometimes God sends us the worst of people so that way when we find the right one we can trully be grateful and understand why things are the way they are and happen the way they do....Life is a test that is full of obstacles, and it is up to you whether or not you can pass...

Antisipating

A dead silence overwhelms the inner core of thy being, creating a distant world in which patience is thy priority. Waiting for love to reappear as a whole, a physical warmth missing in thy surroundings. Only the whispers of faith and hope are heard as thy stand lonely and anxious as the presence gradually fades into the past. A mascarade of faces displayed temporarily until the eager awaiting halts and thy love is returned!

I Smile

A fragrance of distraught consumes the habitat bearing my heart
a unfinished puzzle replicates the inner core of my thoughts
and still i smile

A faded memory trapped in my maze
whispering ever so often, haunting my being
and still i smile

A daily dose of undeserved words
stress drenching off like sweat
and still i smile

Surrounded by pain dripped in bewilderment
carrying on with each step the same as the last
and still i smile

Holding my head up
opening my eyes
and still i smile

Love

Love is pain...so why do we torture ourselves?

Wishing

I wish you knew how my heart pleads for your attention and how I smile a little bit bigger when your around...

Exhausted

What do you do when everything seems to be falling apart and your tired of trying?

Utopia

Sometimes the greatest happiness in life comes from that in which time has bestowed upon thee...

Secrets

Secrets are words that the heart is afraid to say aloud...

Friendship

Your smell arouses me and I dream secretly of your sensitivity, waking with emptyness,

sleeping confused, whispering slightly

Your breath I yearn to sweep across my bare neck, the lips tingle with overwhelmed

antisipation, the eyes reveal such pain deepened to the soul, trapped

Wishing, hoping, praying the usual will surface, but it seems too late, so I pardon thee with a

farewell, until we reunite as "us" once again...

The Girl

If things don't work the way I hope, then I promise that you won't see me mope, because I will see better days and find a better lay. I admit that I'm feeling you and I know you feeling me too, but it seems as though you holdin' back, too busy worrying about another sack using someone elses stack, ya mind ain't what it used to be and I ain't ashamed to admit that it bothers me. Maybe this is just a phase and right now you caught up in a haze, done lost ya car, forgettin' who ya are, it scares me a bit, so thats why I put down this spit, I love ya forever and a day but it just ain't right seein' ya this way. Wish things were what they used to be, late night talks in my driveway just you and me, but I know it's probably too late and that this is just a big mistake, but like they say life ain't fair, so for the moment I'm just gonna suck it up and not care

Guardian Angel

I've figured you out, denial is your home without a doubt. You've changed and become someone new, lost in your thoughts without a clue, enertained by others keeping the focus off you, but I see past what others may not and though you try to smile a lot, your eyes tell it all, watching as you continue to build this anti-emotional wall, trying desperately not to care, to block the pain thats always there, but I read you like an open book, just a simple gaze, a glance, a look. I won't let you live this way, I'll be here for you now like back in the day, friends, lovers whatever the case, I'll be your guardian angel if thats what it takes. Don't give up, be strong because I know you'll eventually get past this and move on

Miracle

I watch as you lay, such innocence you display
Breathing steady as your heart races, competing with mine
Sweeping my hands gently arcoss your essence, waiting for a sincere reaction
Continuing to dream, you toss and turn
I wish for a realization from you, a glimpse of mutual visions
Wondering what your mind traps, hoping I remain in your deepest thoughts
Seeking an emotion most crave, praying for the happiness I deserve and yearn
I believe that one day I may capture myself in this miracle, but for now I will keep my patience and antisipate

Our love

I have looked for days for such a love as ours,

Never to find such a glimpse of comparison

A love so pure and blessed, a love envied

A love in which two kind souls unite

A love that challenges all that is happy and stunned with content

Merged with the strong and the weak, the thick and the thin

This love, our love is eternity.